You are healing by simply recognizing your issue and posting it here. Asking for help is not weakness but rather strength. Proud of you and keep moving forward. Realize that those negative thoughts are just that they are thoughts NOT facts. Remember if I call you a chair you are not really a chair.

No worrying is the hardest thing to do. You worry on a day to day bases. When you get in your car, work, food, family, friends, school maybe and even kids if you have any. Worrying will never stop. But you cant think about what ppl think of you. Addict or Not you are HUMAN and a damn fine one at that. We all make mistakes. I may not be an addict but im so far from perfect its the truth. You stay honest with yourself and the ones who care about you and all else will just fall together. I dont have abutton for you but an idea I once heard at a meeting. Put a little note for urself in your wallet when in doubt you take it out. read it and thats why you stay clean and sober everyday. Make the note how ever you want. But sometime maybe more then some WE all need a pick me up. Coffee isnt my thing but I have a picture in my car (cuz I get pissed the most in my car) its of a very happy time. I pull my sun thing down and BOMB its there. Always. My heart slows down and I get a smile. Dont let judgement fog your AWESOME-NESS. Ohkay I have said to much. Hope I helped a lil at least.